Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Feb 14th, 2011

Dear Benjamin,

Thanks so much for the Valentine and box of chocolates. I must say I was very impressed to receive it. You are only three months old and already a very thoughtful son. How did you get the money to buy it? Nevermind, that's a rude question. I'm just thankful to receive it. I know it wasn't from your father because we don't celebrate Valentine's Day. It just seems silly to us. If you celebrate love all year long, Valentine's Day becomes redundant.

XOXO,
Mom

Feb 16th, 2011

Dear Benjamin,

I found a woman today whose baby needs more milk than she can make. Since I make plenty for you, I volunteered to pump an extra bottle or two a day to give to her. I hope you don't mind sharing your milk. Breastmilk is a priceless gift that mothers give their children. Unfortunately, not every woman has an easy time with breastfeeding. I've been blessed with more milk than you can drink. And I believe when you are blessed with a special gift, you should use it to bless others. Your life will be richer if you give of yourself to others, and the world will be a better place for your kindness.

Love you bunches,
Mom

Monday, February 14, 2011

Feb 15th, 2011

Dear Benjamin,

You are so stinkin' cute. It's unreal. Your smile is so big and bright - it cracks me up. You've started to laugh now and it melts everyone's heart. Your Grandma Gigi has gotten so many awesome pictures of you. I haven't even taken any this month because she has taken so many that I don't need to. She is staying with us this month so that I can return to work and not have to leave you with a babysitter. You are so blessed to have her. She loves you so much and will be heartbroken when she has to go back to Michigan in two weeks. I imagine she's going to be visiting Baltimore a whole lot. Sometimes she's a little spastic and you get fussy because you just want some peace and quiet--so I'm sorry I don't always save you. She just loves you so much that I let her hold you as much as she wants. She's doing way more good than harm and she always figures out what you want eventually. She tirelessly walks you around the house, sings songs, and acts silly just to make you smile. You bring us all such joy. It seems like our whole goal in life these days is just to make you smile.

Love you so much,
Mom

Feb 13, 2011

Dear Benjamin,

Last night, while rocking you to sleep in your nursery, I broke down in tears thinking of all the children in this world who will never know the safe, warm and loving home that you have. All children deserve to be loved, and I feel so incredibly helpless to know that many of them are being mistreated and I can't stop it. Some day I'm going to have to warn you about people who hurt children, and teach you not to talk to strangers. But not yet. Right now things are just so simple and perfect. Your needs are so basic and I can provide them all. Your father is a little jealous of me because at this stage of your life, you need me the most. That will change very soon, but for now I'm loving it.

My protective mothering instincts have really shocked me, by the way. I have gone from being a virtual pacifist to feeling like I could rip someone's head off if they even tried to hurt you. It's pretty incredible, but maybe in some crazy way my mind believes if I protect you a whole bunch, it's like I'm protecting those other children as well. How am I ever going to teach you how to be a man when I don't even want to let you leave the house without me? I guess I have some time to figure that out.

All my love,
Mom